Testaments to God's Works

This is my personal testimony:

Almost 5 ½ years ago, I again found myself at a crossroad in my life.  I was angry at God for so many things, and I quit going to church.  I gave up and I gave in.  I had so many questions and seemed not to find any answers to those questions.  Where was God when I needed him most?  

I saw a slogan one day, and it asked “Haven’t heard from God lately?”  And then another question was asked: “Then, who moved?”  My life was on a path of destruction, and God knew it.  I was in total denial.  And then, I met a wonderful man who was willing to hear my questions and lead me back to the truth.  

It didn’t happen overnight, but I could sense a change that was undeniable.  Finally, things were making some sense out of the chaos of my life.  The first question this wonderful man asked me is, “Do you have a personal relationship with the Lord?”  I thought this was blasphemy.  I was brought up to believe that our God was a punishing God.  How in the world could I have a personal relationship with the Lord?  I then learned that our God is a loving God.  A God who does not want to see a single child of his perish.  And we are all children of God.  Slowly, oh so slowly, I came to accept the Lord as my personal Savior.  I began a daily walk with Him through prayer, reading his Word, and yes, even conversations with Him.  I told Him how angry I was.  I no longer asked Why have all these things happened to me; instead, I asked, why not me?  I felt that God must consider me worthy enough to live through some of the unbearable things in my life.  And then it happened.  I felt peace, and I felt free!  

I walked forward one day during the invitation to accept Christ into my heart, and at the steps of the altar fell to my knees and cried and cried.  Oh, what burdens were taken from me!  Six months after that glorious day, everything in my life started to go wrong again.  I sought counseling from my pastor, and asked him what I had done wrong.   He took my hands, looked at me with his loving eyes and said, “Child, don’t you know that the devil had you and he wants you back?”  I had never thought of that.  

And then, as if things couldn’t possibly get any worse, I was rushed to the emergency room and ended up staying for almost a month.  I had a surgeon who botched up my intestinal surgery so badly, that I have permanent problems.   On three specific occasions I should have died in that hospital.  What do you think sustains me?  It is my unshakeable faith in our Almighty Father, our Abba.  I have been to the Mayo Clinic to seek help, and there is nothing anybody on this earth can do to restore the health that I once had.  And still, I feel blessed.  Jesus told us that we would have many trials on this earth.  So, I consider myself worthy enough to endure them.  I have been very humbled in life.  And even during the pain of what I endure, I still feel God’s loving arms wrapped around me.

And that wonderful man I mentioned earlier- he is now my husband.  Praise be to God!!!!

 

Patricia Truitt